He will come to us like rain. Slowly, then all at once. He will come to us like dew- surrounding everything we see with gentle beauty. He will come to us like a warm summers rain- gentle drops falling as we dance around, as we shout with joy. He will come to us like a thunderstorm- pounding down almost against our will- drenching us with grace and mercy when we need it most. He will come to us like the rain after a drought- to remind us of his faithfulness, and that though he may seem distant he will always be there. He will come to us in a cold winter's rain, as if mourning with us, recognizing the evil of the world but reminding us of His presence. He will come to us like fog- a mystery to unravel, beckoning us to come forward even if we can't see more than a few steps in front of us. He will come to us like a rain shower- giving life, the catalyst of the beauty of nature, the water of life. Always faithful, always love. |
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Last night I thanked God for today before it happened. I thanked him for the joy today would bring, and for the life I would be able to live today.
Today was not a day for the record books of greatness. Today I found out that my ex who I had dated seriously for two years just got engaged. Today a small issue with a group project was blown up to an embarrassing proportion. Today I was tired emotionally and physically, as I was once more overwhelmed by the things I needed to do and the imminent realization that I am in fact graduating in 6 days. Today I find myself still without a job and with more questions than answers as I wait to hear back from the recruiter. But today I was able to go to the Nutcracker, which I was really excited about. And today I got to spend time with a dear friend of mine, and then was able to return home and relax, talk to my parents, and enjoy a peaceful evening being home alone. Though there was both good and bad today, for both I am thankful. I am thankful to God that this is my life, and that I have the joy and sorrow of being alive for both are gifts to bring me closer to His image. I don't know what each day will bring, and though that angers me most days, I have hope and peace in knowing my God knows what I can't, and that in all things, He works for my good. Glory be to God I graduate in 6 days! One of the most important things I have learned about God is that He is not a wish granting machine. His heart does not completely leap with joy when we approach Him at the end of our day and instead of praising him, communicating with Him, opening our hearts to Him, we instead wish the many pitiful and grave desires of our hearts. Don't get me wrong, part of being in an open conversation with God is expressing the desires of our hearts. However, I feel it is incredibly important to approach God with our thankfulness and our praise before listing the often random and scattered things that we choose to ask for. God knows the desires of our hearts, He knows the things we long for, our hopes and dreams. Our God first and foremost deserves our praise, our awe, and our reverence. Let us have faith enough to converse with God without simply listing requests of Him, while still having faith that He will provide.
It is so crucial to have faith in His plans and His ways, and these are often not the desires of our hearts. I desired to be living in Washington right now. I desired to be engaged right now. I desired to have my life figured out, a job in line by now. But that wasn't God's plan, that isn't his plan. Yet I must wait on His perfect will, which is far greater that I could have imagined and wished of Him. Job is definitely ‘that book’ in the bible that people tell you to read if you’re going through something hard or if you’re facing struggles in your life. And for whatever reason, I decided it was the perfect book to kick start my journey through God’s word with my new Women’s Study Bible. It’s not as though I have any poignant problems in my life- more residual I’d call them, ranging from a 2 year breakup that’s still dissolving, my struggle with being at CSU, and the ever unsuccessful internship search and from that stress about my success as a year away from graduating Senior.
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